this fucked me up a bit

This is excellent. 

new tattoo

nope, then you found control. - my vision.



Weird fact I just realized: I don’t believe in real love, nor monogamy. But I’m always positive, and I never stress. Does accepting the fact there is no love makes you a happier person? >>
You are the train of devastation.

Don’t make anymore wrecks than you allready did. Just go to the destination you always wanted or always felt you should have. You will become a train full of acceptance. In this fully loaded train, there is a spot. One spot for two people on the ground. It’s the spot of affection.

The truth about a cheater.

The cheat. I’m a cheater. Simple cheater. On you I would never cheat. But I would always cheat with you.

Your lessons that you adored to teach others, but not always listened to yourself.

Well, of course I hope you become a happy person. But why can’t you see that what you did was wrong. Why did you ever started it in the first place. If you were a real grown up you handled it different. I know you know I loved you. I loved you from the start. Day after day, year after year. I know you know. All those years. I know how you think about life and death. I know how you think about the littlest things and the big things. You learned me so much. Every day, your words and your lessons will be with me. For the rest of my life. You know that right? Even though you made me feel like a pig sometimes. I love your lessons. Your lessons that you adored to teach others (especially me), but not always listened to yourself. I care, I care so much that it hurts. Even though you may not think about me. No, wait. I know you think about me. You just don’t want to surrender. But it’s not a competition anymore. I closed those doors, I was blind. But you know… When a person gives his blind friend a one dollar bill and tells him it’s a hundred dollar bill, I’m positive he’d believe it. I mean, he may has his doubts. But he will believe you, it’s trust. 

In the end I will always carry every moment with me. I love you. But I think I have the right to say that you were wrong. Very wrong.


After all the hatred, bullying and fights on high school. It all gets better. We outgrow the hate, we find what we love, we find who we love, we find ourselves. We get strong.